RoboGoGoRobo

I no longer worry about my future because I don't have one. I probably don't have a lot time left anymore, but there's a lot I've wanted to do. I've been down-playing some worrying medical issues that I'll never be able to afford. I've never really liked monetization of my art, and I feel so much crippling fear and self-hatred when I talk about my Patreon and SubscribeStar, but I've been wanting to change things up there a bit. I'd like to make the Secret Comics free for everyone, and I want it to be available in multiple sources. Currently, they're on my Itaku since they tend to be too saucy for here. I'm slowly catching up my Itaku and featuring things I can't post here, over there. twitter is worthless for promoting my art, and I feel mostly ignored there, so I won't prioritize it as much. I think for SubscribeStar and Patreon, I'm going to just replace the Secret Comics as a premium thing with the Desktop Club. I make a lot of desktop wallpaper variants of my art that no one gets

I'm still feeling hopeless about many things, especially about personal life fulfillment. I haven't had a happy life. I haven't had a good life, and I've been feeling withdrawn and depressed. I don't think I'll ever claw my way out of poverty, and I'll never find romantic love. My only value is what I can do for other people, and it's not a very high value at that. I've been feeling afraid of reaching out and still feeling trapped. There's a lot I need to do, but I can't take care of my own needs as others' needs always supersede my own. I've lost a lot of trust for people for people who say I can talk to them any time, and always end up having to always be some one elses' personal therapist. I've learned that anything I say will be ignored or used against me, so that makes it even harder to speak up. I really need comfort and encouragement, but I feel so much guilt about receiving anything. I feel I've only endured a lifetime of abusive relationships and toxic lessons. I want to

I'm finally in a safe situation and adjusting to a new life. I hope things go better soon.